[Thatnewgirl]

It's always helpful to be honest, especially to yourself. Sounds like you really want to go to New York so shouldn't that give you something to live for? If you don't think you can wait that long and feel really suicidal then tell the counselor. They will most likely put you in a behavioral center. Depending on how you improve though you may not be in there that long. I was only in for less than a week. However even if you get out before your trip your parents may then be reluctant to let you go to New York. I would think about this carefully. Don't try and kill yourself though if you feel as though you are going to you need to tell someone.

Be safe.