[Kate*]

Hey there and welcome

It's always best to be honest when seeking help, but I know how hard it is. She will ask you about suicide etc. If your life is in danger or if you're harming yourself, she will have to tell your mom, it's not her choice. Hospitalization is a last resort and they probably will not do it unless you are an imminent risk to yourself. In other words, only if you're absolutely going to harm yourself, and even if they do, it probably won't be long unless you really need it (typically 3 days.) This would probably make your mom hesitant to let you go to New York regardless though. If you get help, you can always go to New York later or you might be able to work something out that would allow you to go, but it depends on a lot of different things.