I just really felt like I needed to post this, things have been really shitty for the past few months but I finally got some good news this afternoon
So I went to a portfolio review day with my friend today for graphic design. I had gone before and its really great to bring in pieces and have them evaluated before putting them in your portfolio. So I brought in my required pieces (layout test and self portrait) and my other 10 pieces I was considering. The professor was telling us that if we have an outstanding portfolio and our work is really good, we could get accepted then and there, but I didn't think much of it because all the portfolio sessions I've gone to, the professors haven't liked my work very much.
But this professor did, he accepted me to the program as soon as he saw my work!