[Calaer]

Hey. I'm sorry to hear that you SH. Just know that you aren't alone, and if there is anything I can do for you, or if you just want to chat, I'm always here.

I've been in a similar situation. Sadly, I was underage at the time, so my doctor told my family everything and because I was underage, I was forced to go in to the hospital for treatment. I'm not sure how things are where you're at, I'm in the US. I'm not sure if they can force treatment on you against your will, but telling your doctor may be a good idea, and they may be able to help you find the help you need to stop the SH habit before something bad happens.

I know here, once you're of age, your doctor can't tell your family anything, even if you still live with them or not. If your doctor isn't telling your mother about your anxiety, I'd say the same rule applies for you. In which case, just explain do your doctor that you don't want your mom to know, and they won't tell her anything.

As for actually telling your doctor, I'd say just explain to your doctor that you do this, but you're coming to them in confidence to try and stop. Explain to them that you're reaching out, but that you don't want your mother to know. Maybe they will be able to point you in the right direction for a good therapist, or even help you out them self.

I really hope this helps, and remember if you ever need to chat, I'm just a message away. Keep your head up.