[Kate*]

That may not be "how you do it", but "I can't have/do anything that I want because of this disability and I need any job I get because I have to survive" is an absolutely valid way to do it bitch so before you go insulting me for trying and "not knowing" when the posting was written poorly and they wasted my time, you might want to learn what tact and real "help" mean first or keep your fucking mouth shut. I lost everything to this disability and I know you know that because you responded to the post where I told them everything. And I don't have to defend shit to you so there. By the way, why are you in this group if you're going to say stuff like this to people who have it when you don't.

After a really rough day, I start to almost kind of think I might be able to make something out of this mess I've been stuck with and I get slapped in the face again. Failure and living off the government w, I swear that's all I'll ever be capable of. When I was 5 courses from my dream career masters degree, yeah, that's a fall from grace if there ever was one.

I DELETED that for this exact reason, and it wasn't gone, which means I was just inundated with being told I'm "not ready" for things that CAN'T HAPPEN, if you would FUCKING LISTEN then I would feel more comfortable. And no, life is NOT what you make it, I'm neurologically screwed. I notice you suggested counseling, you did NOT tell me I was wrong about any of this I still don't like you and it's gone now so there we go. I still feel like this is going to force me to settle and FYI it already has in the worst way possible. I'm convinced the pain from this is never going to go away. I still want it even though I know how hard it was and what they put me through. I don't know when I'm going to stop desperately wanting what He already took from me.

I wish I could do that, but if I had the skills necessary to do that, I'd be a licensed counselor by now and I wouldn't be in this mess to begin with.