[Celyn]

Hey there,

I've had some similar experiences. Sometimes when I think or am reminded of the past, I get anxious too. Though for me, it's more like an uncomfortable feeling.

Either way, I think this happens when we have a lot of emotions from the past. If the past was difficult, it can still affect us in the present. If the past was happy, and things are different now, it can also be hard to accept. At the same time, you are right that if we've changed a lot it can be hard being reminded of the past.

It may be because of anxiety issues or OCD. To cope with it, it might be worthwhile trying to avoid any triggers of the past for a while. If you do get triggered, find ways to calm yourself down and then get distracted by doing something that makes you feel positive about yourself. Also, are you currently seeing a therapist? It's definitely a good idea to talk about your issues, especially seeing as this upsets you a lot.

Take care