[Palmolive]

Hey sweet.

I'm sorry you're going thorough this, I know how hard it can be but you're doing so well. What's important is how to pick yourself up from these slip ups of self harm. You need to focus on how to move forward instead of going backwards. Use distractions, sit with family or pets, go out for walks, make a list of reasons not to self harm and focus on then, make a list of life worth living goals, set goals each day to achieve, do mindfulness, try guided imagery, watch a film in bed snuggled up, get out if the house, and so on. Keep yourself busy doing things so your mind doesn't wander to far.

Cutting deep isn't good, we both know that. I've been severely anaemic because of it which made me very ill and I was put on bed rest. I nearly needed surgery once because I cut too deep. Blood loss, losing family and friends, putting yourself at risk, it's not worth it at all. You deserve so much more than all of this and I hope you can soon start to see that. I hope your new therapist helps. Maybe you could talk about ways to deal with the urges? Talk about what's triggering them. Talk about what's on your mind even. I know ths is a hard fight but you've got to keep fighting. I spent three years in hospital at once and it was horrible and I'd hate to see you have to go through that. You really do not deserve it. You're so beautiful, lovely, kind and genuine and tun deserve everything good.

Try and stay safe. You deserve to owe yourself that. We're here for you okay? I'm here for you.

Jessie x