[Kate*]

When you comment on a public Facebook page, it shows up in all your friend's newsfeeds and there's no setting to hide them!!! I just deleted a ton of comments because I didn't realize everyone I knew could see them. Thanks Facebook! Why didn't any of my friends TELL ME?!?!

I don't know how much longer I can do this. It feels like the perfect plan collapsed and my life went with it. The fact that, in over a year nothing has come together to replace it isn't helping. I seem doomed to lose my dreams and have them replaced by an absolutely miserable life. I've had enough of losing things to this, I'm done.

Not everyone gets a happy ending, you of all people, should know that. These are the times I question whether there's a God. I don't understand how a loving God could put an innocent person through the tragedies of my life story and expect me to believe He knows what hes doing and its all going to be okay.

I'm not your job anymore, but I still feel like I need help from you; or at least my conscience needs to tell you to your face what this really did to me. Too bad I'll never get either. Maybe it's better, if more painful that way. I don't think I could go back to that building right now even though I did it once before. I'm already having flashbacks as it is, no need to go back to where it all began.

I don't even know the answers to the questions that would be the beginning of getting out of this, so even if that were an option, it wouldn't help and everyone else has already given up or turned their backs on me. That's encouraging, I'm resigned to never being okay again. I told you that was going to happen and you didn't believe me.

Thank God this group is closed and no one else can see it because I just vented my whole story to them and I REALLY didn't mean to do that Hopefully it lasts, but people have left it, so I'm pretty much waiting for it to turn bad.