[Kate*]

I was one of the ones who LOVED it and, had I not been broken, could've had it EASILY! "We want you to succeed, even if it's not with us." Well, you're going to be disappointed then because no one with this ever has. Unless suicide counts of course, then we take the cake. And I want to tell you to your face everything this and you have done to me, but it looks like I'll be disappointed too. You've moved on like I never existed, but I hope this haunts you sometimes. You didn't care as much as you claimed, so I don't feel bad for saying that.

Yes, it's after 4pm and I'm still in bed. Had a nightmare and then fell back to sleep UGH!

When the crisis line has already told you to stop using them, so you wait months until you're desperate to try again because you have no choice and they send you away, you know you're fucking screwed. That was supposed to help and I just feel worse. I was going to kill myself anyway, no reason not to now.

It's like being stuck on a constantly inclining hamster wheel. The harder and longer you run, the steeper it gets until you're either forced to give up out of sheer exhaustion, or you go flying off and it's not like you ever get anywhere.

I HATE this feeling, I don't even know what to call it, or if I even want it to go away.

Great, more to be jealous of. I hate my life.

STOP posting weight loss stuff, I'm sick of hearing how "being healthy" seems to mean the complete opposite. Between that and you going back and forth with your trainer, I'm over it.