[MsNobleEleanor]

I'm having a hard time working on worksheets that I have and have requested from my counselor to work on over the holidays, I am having a hard time with them. I am going back to the sheets I was given during an Anxiety workshop, basically setting goals and how I would achieve them. I want to start there because it's goal setting. The sheets he gave me are more on: appreciating your strengths, three phases of therapy, the language of the body good times/bad times/your body, the wisdom of the body, lost and found (attitudes and actions, etc) and then recognizing animal defenses.

For some reason, I am struggling to sit down and do them. I start and I feel anxious meanwhile I am working on my anxiety goals (go figure) thinking about this stuff, well... it's like all the metaphoric words and imagines pop up and I am lost. I never sat at the table/desk and did actual homework so it's no doubt I am having issues. I mean I sew and I am able to do some sewing for 30 minutes and then I need to do something else because I am sitting, it's like I am trapped in this body that needs to get out. Not sure if that makes sense...

I know working on therapy homework at home alone is hard but this, I don't know if I can do this. I asked for the sheets and I told my counselor I will work on them. I just feel like crying as I am working on them. How am I suppose to survive DBT-Lite in 4 weeks? I will be given homework, and if I am having a hard time with this, I am not sure about DBT-Lite homework...

I am trying and I am taking small steps and these small steps have taken me months to do, some I had to force myself to do them but now I do them usually daily. I don't want to force myself to do this work, I want to be able to do them without forcing myself, if that makes sense?

Not sure I really would like some advice or something... or help?