IYou're worthless. All we used to have meant absolutely nothing. You turned on me. You hurt me. You're cruel and vindictive. I hope you are miserable. You're nothing to me. I'm glad I know nothing about you anymore. What I do know breaks my heart and makes me see how cruel you are. I dodged a bullet and so did so many others I know of.

It hurts so much to be alive. It's just overwhelming. I literally want to do something that might kill me. I am overcome with anger and I don't know why. I haven't been this angry since the last time I cut really bad...those two and a half years ago. I feel so miserable and I have so much to be grateful for. I want to lash out. I want to hurt people like I am hurting. Why am I so messed up? Why can't I pull myself together. Why am I falling apart again.