[Kate*]

Conducting sessions in my dreams again. These are the times I miss it most. I thought I was done having these. My heart desperately wants what my brain won't let me have. They seriously think this was a favor. They will never understand the soul crushing, waking nightmare that it really is. And obviously they don't care. I'm waiting for KARMA because I am NOT the only one.

It is Sunday morning and freezing outside. I am trying to SLEEP why are you cutting down a FUCKING TREE!?!?You are supposed to be moving; just get the fuck out!

WHY do I keep getting the feeling that it's not over?!?! It doesn't get to be more over than it is, but I can't shake the feeling that I'll get to do it somehow; and it really sucks because I know that I never will so my heart just stays set on what I couldn't be further from ever having. UGH!

And if you are up again cutting down more trees, I can't even!

So, you'll call AOL to reset your email password, but you won't call Medicaid to fix the insurance?!?! I know I had the problem first, but THIS AFFECTS YOU TOO!!!!

STOP complaining about your weight on Facebook!!!! Yours is less of a health issue and more of a self-esteem problem. I need to lose the same amount you do, I have anxiety, depression, and self-esteem issues too, and this year has been absolute HELL for me, but you don't see me complaining and obsessing over it do you?! I keep it private and send messages to my friends who care instead of posting it for everyone to see.