Well its that time of year again and my depression is already acting up. I'm having a hard time getting out of bed, but what's worse is leaving the house. Its not because of the weather, I like the cold and the weather here has been prettyholidays What bothers me when I leave the house is the constant reminder of how lonely I am. Seeing it will either anger and almost make me cry because I have no one in my life. I can't change it either because those Damn dating sites are useless. I spend almost every night getting drunk and medicating myself to sleep.

These holidays really piss me off. I don't like seeing or being reminded of how miserable my life is, especially when my "family" gets to have a good time. im so sick and tired of this life i have to live, so fucking sick of these fucking holidays.