[jamdoughnut]

listen
listen
LISTEN
JUST FUCKING LISTEN PLEASE
I hate how you deny me my freedom. I hate how you tell me you want me to do my best and do what I want to do but then you turn around and suppress my every thought and move. For fucks sake I can't even speak my mind in this house without one of you trying to silence or belittle me. And you wonder why I have problems, why I hate this house. Dear god, please, please please, let me get that longboard, so that I can get out of here when I need to. Give me an escape from this place I can't stand it for another four years.I don't even know how I'm going to make it through this year, especially without my orchestra I.... Somebody please just listen. Listen to what I have to say, don't ignore me. I'm ignored by teachers, by my classmates, people in general don't give a fuck about my existence; ignored by my parents and my brothers and my family, my church, my supposed friends who haven't talked to me in months, my old "boyfriend" who really wasn't even my boyfriend who doesn't even have the decency to say hi or to look me in the eye, even my dog ignores me. I really can't think of a single person who truly paid any attention to me other than my first dog, subashtion, but he's been dead for more than a year. I speak and no one listens, no one hears me.I try to speak my mind and I'm either shut up because what I said is "stupid" or my thoughts are instantly ruled out because I'm younger. I don't exist, I don't mean anything to any of these people. No matter what I do I always end up alone. Always. And I'm so tired of it.
I REALLY need that longboard for Christmas this year. Get me out of here.