[Kate*]

Got a job interview and it's over the phone so I don't have to go anywhere to do it! Lets hope this is the open door I've been waiting (14 months) for and that I don't end up jinxing it or getting fired.

Feel like shit again for no reason after 4pm and still in bed.UGH

I'm trying to accept the fact that it's over while HOPING against hope there's a bigger reason for all of it; but sometimes the memories are all I can think about and going back is all I want.

Something is WRONG, I think I might just be slipping again at the worst time. Place me where I'm needed and help me be okay with it.

For once, I really want a job I'm interviewing for. Watch me screw it up! Or get fired. STUPID BRAIN DAMAGE!!! Plus my grandma was sick last night after being with my mom for 3 days straight. If there's a God, I WILL NOT catch it. I need a break. After the last 14 months I've had, I deserve a break.

I LOVE how the woman without a college degree is the one posting all the shit about them being worthless. I was making something out of mine, but life doesn't work out when you have a LEARNING DISABILITY! LEARN THAT!

Guess what? I'm nauseous, my anxiety is getting to me, and I don't want it anymore. Trying to take what I find with a grain of salt. I will not be taken advantage of or treated like that again.

Still want to go back, anything is better than this. I think I was put here to suffer, nothing else. This broke me for the last time and I am done.

If you can't remember to call and interview me, I don't want to work for you.