[Palmolive]

Hi there.

I'm sorry that you are going through all of this right now but so so glad you've come to us here for some help and support.

Being bullied isn't a nice thing to experience and you don't deserve to be treated in a bad way. I am however glad you have spoken out about this and I hope your school helps you to stop the bullying because it sounds to me like this might be the trigger to the urges to self harm and the anxiety. Do you think I'm right? I might be completely wrong but that's the impression I have gotten.

Beating anxiety can be really hard but you can do it. When I used to disassociate in hospital, my friends would get my baby blanket for me and then spray some body spray which brought me out of out and I also found them really relaxing so maybe you could try this for your anxiety? Listening to music in your headphones is always a good one but most importantly, when you feel anxious, sit down, ground yourself and take some deep breathes in through your nose and out through your mouth. Maybe look up some mindfulness exercises too like the body scan so you can practice it and allow it to help you when you are anxious. Write about things you are anxious about too. Get them off your chest. Talk to people as well, that's so important.

You've been given a link to the self harm alternatives on Teenhelp so I want to encourage you to talk a look at that. I know that they can become draining but some things will work for you, you just have to find them so it's a bit like trial and error I guess. Keep trying new and old things to find what works for you. But remember self harming doesn't help in the long run, if it did you wouldn't still be doing it. And you ARE a lot stronger than the urges and you CAN beat them. We all believe in you but you need to believe in yourself too. Just don't suffer in silence. Reach out to the people around you in "real life" and us here. You never have to be alone in this.

Please feel free to message me if you need anything. Hold on to hope.
Hopes and wishes,
Jessie