[Kate*]

I'm the person with this who feels too much, not the opposite, but thanks for collapsing my life on that, and many other false assumptions. My heart will forever ache for the only thing it can't have. I hope you haven't forgotten about me and that they didn't lie about my reputation among you. I'll probably need those at some point, I wish I knew for sure that they were there. I still miss it, you have no idea how much this hurts. I wish I could have the chance to tell you everything I want to. After being there for so long, coming so close, and having it end the way it did and being treated the way I was, I deserve closure, and I'll probably never get it. This broke me and I want you to have to deal with that. You had no choice, but I was born this way so, no choice for me either, but thanks for treating me like shit while you acted all innocent. You are a PROFESSIONAL for fuck sake. But you always use your theory of choice to blame your clients too. That's only a valid theory if you're willing to apply it to yourself too.

"And you're blaming me for that." You're damn right I am! You were provoking the crap out of me. "Take responsibility" for yourself before coming down on me for reacting to you.

Chances are, I really am as screwed as I think. I forgot about the fact that the undergrad GPA I had only accounted for about 80% of my work. I wonder if all the other work makes it higher or not. I wish I could know without paying for transcripts, I might have a better chance than I thought, but I don't want to get excited about it and then have it actually be the same or worse. I'm starting to like this idea, crap!