[Philomath]

Hi,

I am with Holly on this. As someone that has depression, your symptoms sound like some of what I experience. Depression is not a disorder with any concrete symptoms. Meaning that there are symptoms however those symptoms are different for each individual and the severity of the symptoms is a factor too.
If you can, try talking to your doctor and asking for a list of local counselors/therapists. They can recommend people in your area that take your insurance and would be able to see you for low-cost or free therapy depending on your income.
In the mean time, try staying around other people, focusing on things that are positive (comedies, art projects, volunteering Etc) to help eliviate what you are going through.
You can and will get through this. You are not alone.
Take care and we are all here for you!