Hello!
I do think that you can do stuff like write things in a diary that will help you rant out your feelings. And for now, i think it's also good if you try by ranting your problems out to your friends or anyone you know won't tell your secrets. The first step is always the hardest, but you've already made it
You've ranted out your feelings on this thread, and that is a good beginning. This means that you're opening up, and this will surely help you in the future.
The main thing to remember is that everyone has tough times.. so don't blame yourself regarding your situation
You have the capability to find a job, and you're more than dedicated enough and hardworking enough for it.
Your mind has to encourage your body, and that's where the magic happens.
The best thing to remember about you is that no matter what you think , or what other people say.. you've talent. You've potential and you're special. Nothing can take that away from you.
It might not feel that way, but that's the truth. Believe in yourself, make every step with determination and courage and never hesitate in believing
Also, stay safe and remember that happiness comes to those who move forward and take their chances .
Slowly but surely is the keyword here. Every day, do something meaningful and positive like some charity work, or making someone smile. The little things add up, and these are great for your confidence
You can beat this, and we're here to help you. All the way!
Stay strong and remember that you can
Pm me anytime!