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Re: Why do you self-harm? - December 1st 2015, 03:47 PM
Originally it was a learned behavior between seeing my mom do it and my abusers teaching me. Eventually it was to punish myself. As I came to grips with my abuse it was more to ground myself from dissociation and flashbacks. It still grounds me, but I've been managing not to use it as a grounding technique. It's also an addiction. I love the rush. Seeing how deep I dare to go. But I don't get the same rush anymore so I just prefer not to self harm. I realize I'm better than that. Yeah.

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