[Kate*]

They took the channel back

I've always had trust issues because of the way I was treated growing up with this and I'll probably always have them. I know you cared, but I feel like you, him, and maybe him were the only ones who did. I'm convinced they only told me that to avoid a lawsuit so I can't believe what they said. I still want the meeting/closure with you that I was entitled to. I completely get why you weren't there and you never need to apologize for being a parent, but I want the truth and I know you could break it to me gently because, like I said, I don't believe a word the rest of them said.

I get it, but I can't do it and that ruined my life. And everything that happened ruined me. I'm glad it hurt you and I know you don't owe me anything, but part of me feels like you do. I still want it and I don't know if that will ever go away. I really don't think I can do this much longer.