[Everglow.]

Technically I did say this to your face but since you shouted at me before I got the chance to explain it more I'll go ahead and say it here instead. Making a phone call may 'not be that hard' for you. But I spent half an hour one time with the number dialed, phone in hand, looking at the dial button with my thumb over it, crying because I just couldn't press it. My mouth goes dry. I shake. I feel dizzy. It makes me feel physically sick. I can spend all night rehearsing what I need to say before I actually make the call. Even after rehearsing for the whole night, I'll go over it and over it and rethink it in different ways, imagine how they will reply and practice what I'll say back. But because I don't know, I panic and I worry. Making a phone call is NOT easy when the one thing you're cripplingly frightened of is social interaction. Just because you have loads of friends and you talk to people easily and always have a witty response and answer, doesn't mean we all do. I can't make friends. I can't pick up a phone and just dial the number. I can't just apply to any job and bullshit my way through it. I can't stand up for myself. I can't initiate a conversation with someone I don't know. I can't maintain a conversation with someone I DO know. Life is not that grand for everyone, okay?

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Also, don't get offended when I say I don't want to cut my hair short because I'll look like a bloke. Don't be all 'why is being a man such a bad thing' when we support women. You live with three women. Don't be the man who can't work out why the nice guys don't get dates, and please don't be the man who pretends to support womens rights, LGBT+ rights, etc, when half of the things you come out with are borderline offensive.

Sorry.