I am a 16 year old girl residing in India currently.I have always been a bright student and there had never been thoughts about relationships in my mind.Until things began changing in 2014.I had a short virtual connection,not a 'relationship',really from around 26th Dec,2014 to 22nd Feb,2015.
I thought the recovery was painful enough once he left,so I would never ever do that mistake again but I did it,yet again.
This,as a matter of fact was also very virtual because the guy lives in Connecticut and about this,I also knew he had to leave at some point of time.I did not know it would be this quick but after he left and got engaged to someone else,I have been feeling really down.And especially at night.I have had minor cases of depression before but I have got uncontrollable suicidal thoughts for 3 days in a row.I could not contact a single helpline because there is no such service in India and it is getting me worried now.Each time,I have controlled hard by convincing myself that this would be called a joke and I have never done anything since I have grown up for my life to be called a joke.I am a really hardworking,determined sort of person but I also have to mention,that I have had a disturbed childhood and I have got some insecurity in me.
I also have managed myself really well in all this time but I think this time,it is getting out of my hands.I need some urgent help.
