[Sophrosyne]

I miss you so much. I wish I had never screwed up so much and said all those things that I never meant. Everyday I remember the good moments and how I screwed it up. I'm so sorry. I could never say that enough times to you. I apologised and yet I knew it could never make up for the damage I did. I wish you could find it in you to forgive me. I'm sorry. I know I don't deserve to be around you anymore. It was so long ago but I still beat myself up over how much I ruined. We were perfect and I ruined it. I wish it never happened. At least that I never had to see you again so it didn't hurt so much when I see your face. It hurts. I could never and can never do anything to help but I wish I could. You have no idea how much. Maybe one day you will not hate me so much.