[Kate*]

I HATE that you run so late all the time. You say we're leaving at a certain time, I'm ready and it ends up being 10-20 minutes before we leave because you're still doing your makeup. You tell me you're leaving at 12:30 and it ends up being like 1:15. It drives me NUTS! and for God's sake, TURN YOUR RADIO OFF! I get that you're losing your hearing, but your alarm shouldn't be waking ME up and then you walk off and leave it and I can't go back to sleep.

Telling me you feel bad doesn't pay off my debt, agreeing that it sucks doesn't make it better, saying you're sorry won't make it possible, ignoring me won't stop your guilt, blaming me won't vindicate you and offering help won't take the pain away. I desperately want what I can never have; its that simple. I never claimed to be an angel, but I will not apologize for expecting to be treated like a human being. I only have 1 regret in 3 years, and it resulted in recruiting one of the best advocates I could've had so in a way, it worked out for good.

I didn't, but don't worry, I'll never use it for anything again. This kind of thing is why I left. And now I'm gone. Probably in more ways than one.