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There's a good deal of information here, and i must apologise if i can not make it any shorter. Bear with me.

So i'm currently in high school, rolling in construction for a year now and doing so-so but steadily deteriorating...

My main issue is that i WAS interested for a while, but 'adult' life isn't really what it's made out to be i've come to find very quickly nor do any counselors or teachers make much of an attempt to make it seem exciting. I find myself being repulsed more and more, and as of recent the discussion with my counselor has become fairly stagnant as she seems to take more of an apathetic stance on the matter (i.e. the stress is normal you just need to adapt to absolutely everything here and it will be fine forever) which is what my father has been telling me the entire time which is not motivating in the slightest.

I've been feeling mentally and physically unwell for a long time, 2 years maybe, i will get tired easily after most physical excercise receiving a feeling of malaise (though i still manage to stand on par with others if i strain myself) and i get pounding headaches along, and outside training and it has only slightly worsened over time to a point where i seem to do worse in general besides some basic physical tasks. I have recently visited my general practitioner with my father, and also made the circumstances clear to the counselors but the situation remains largely the same and i'm forced to continue straining myself regularly which leads me back to the main issue i mentioned.. I really do not find construction attractive anymore, nor any of the associated lines on the school.

I have mentioned that i still consider changing lines and perhaps starting anew but there's the problem of not quite knowing what i even want to study. I have expressed my feelings about the situation, but they are saying i should avoid changing lines entirely even though i do not feel comfortable in my current position nor have i had a chance to organize the resources or plans i will need in order to continue in construction..

This feels a bit messy, apologies again. I realize there are more problems involved here than simply my education but i've been worried about my future for a while and i cannot bear the obnoxiousness that is developing from this now so i had to post this somewhere.