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So I have depression and anxiety and also issues with food but I don't know if it's a full blown eating disorder or just part of my depression...

I hate going to school. I don't mind learning, and as long as I'm not in a terrible mood I can study by myself ok, but being surrounded by people all day is so draining. Especially at lunch time, the lunch room is so noisy, there's like 200 people all crammed into one room and we're all squished together and there's music playing loudly and I can't eat infront of people anyway. My therapist phoned my vice principal and told her that she thought I needed somewhere to go at lunch time if I feel like I need to get away from people and she just responded with "you'll be fine just stay with your friends" and I was just like yeah that's not how it works. Today I walked in the lunch room, felt everyone staring at me and left, had a panic attack and burst into tears infront of the nurse and made a complete idiot of myself it was awful and humiliating.

I stayed off school on Monday and I really really really don't want to go tomorrow even though I have to, I have literally no support so if I have a panic attack or go into one of my weird psychotic self destructive moods then I feel like people will just think I'm being weird and not take me seriously. And now I'm getting anxiety about getting anxiety... Ahhhh don't know what to do