[UponReflection]

I haven’t written poetry in a while,
When I showed her a piece of mine for the first time I said
“I apologize for it being sad”,
Explaining that my poetry is always a little dark
I take my inner most thoughts,
The ones I have buried,
Locked in a vault somewhere deep inside
And relinquish them to the paper.

I apologize for it being sad.

I haven’t written poetry in a while,
I couldn’t feel the weight of the vault for quite some time.
Every conversation, every kiss
Made the burden easier to carry.
I had forgotten how to write sad poems.
Feeling weightless and infinite I had nothing to give to the paper,
But now that she’s gone the poems come flooding out like a waterfall
And the weight of the vault has me plummeting to the bottom
And my god I don’t know if I want to swim to the surface anymore.
Just maybe let the current of these words whisk me away,
Let my lungs fill with sadness and the world fade to black.

I don’t think I’m going to write poetry for a while.