[Kate*]

My only options are fail, settle, or die. I'm done.

Disability doesn't change my Code, I'm going to ache to help people even if my brain says I can never have human contact again. I don't see anything ever working

If only I weren't disabled do you understand how much easier my life would be?! I could have anything I wanted in life, but instead I'm stuck losing everything instead. If there were jobs in that it wouldn't even be a question because I'd do that instead, but since there aren't, I'm stuck settling for something I don't really want.

I can never have what I want, I don't know who I am or what my life is going to look like and it's been nothing but suffering the entire time because the good times eventually fell apart. Everything is in shambles and I'm completely lost.. I can't even ask for that anymore because I just get ignored now. I'm not doing this shit for attention, it's my new reality.

If I could get a job with that I'd be set, but they don't exist. If I could do social work then I could've done counseling, so that's out which leaves me with two options, neither of which I'm desperate for and one of which is impossible anyway. I HATE my life; and the reason it sucks will get worse and never go away.