[L4Y]

First off, in regard to playing football, I feel you should do whatever it is that makes you happy. If that is not football - especially if you believe it is having a detrimental effect on your life - than I feel you simply shouldn't do it.

Your family sounds very unsupportive, to say the least, and in my opinion should understand that football it something that conflicts with your life and support whatever makes you happy.

To me, the most important part of your post is the mention of abuse by your father. This is completely wrong and needs to be addressed one way or another - whether that means confiding in another family member or someone else you trust. Best wishes.