[Kate*]

I LOVE how people say others are too sensitive and political correctness goes too far about things they don't understand. Then someone says something that offends them and they flip the fuck out

Just when I think I've decided on one, the other starts to look good again. If I had been able to finish the one I started and really wanted, I wouldn't have this problem! Just when I think I'm ready to contact people so I can move on, I start to talk myself out of it. I don't want to wait forever, but this is incredibly hard. What if they lied and my reputation is shot, what if they just ignore me, what if she tells me to wait longer, what if they tell me no, what if it really is as worthless as I think so even if I earn it, I can't use it? Which is worse, failing at something you've dreampt of your whole life, or succeeding at something you can never use? I'll probably end up doing both. Failure at anything is a real possibility here, what if it happens again? Or, better, what will I do when it does. A person can only go through this so many times.

My allergies are killing me and we have nothing that will help. I'm losing another night of sleep to these and it SUCKS I am SO TIRED