[Kate*]

Welcome, you can rant here any time you want and this is far from the longest post I've seen so no worries.

I agree that your teacher was completely out of line, she can tell you she doesn't think the class is right for you, but the rest of it was incredibly unprofessional. Maybe calculus isn't your thing and that's okay. One bad semester does not mean you're completely screwed. And my dad is SO similar to your dad, I can't even tell you. I'm starting to think all dads are like that. He wants to prevent you from struggling as much as he can, but I completely get it. Here's what I think you should do:

As far as math goes, find something that's a better fit and be grateful that you probably won't deal with that teacher again. As someone who is an expert at holding grudges Let go of what she said now or it will eat you alive. She was out of line and the fact that she's a teacher doesn't mean she was right about what she said or that she had the right to say it. I know we want people who hurt us to have consequences, but sometimes it just doesn't happen. I am a strong believer in karma though.

With chemistry, you said you just got lazy and stopped doing your work so you already have your solution to that one and as much as it sucks to have a crush you can't act on, you can't let it distract you either because this kind of thing is what happens.

When it comes to your dad, I don't know what to tell you, in my situation I was forced to stop speaking to him because I had just had enough and I'm recovering from pretty much having my entire life collapse and he was the last thing I needed. I think you should just do the best you can and more or less shut him out. You can't control what he says or does, but you don't have to let it get to you.

Also, if you have a history of what I'm guessing is mental illness and you're feeling this bad, professional help is never a bad idea. Maybe start with the school counselor and see what they say. They won't have to tell your parents unless you're harming yourself or someone else, or if you're suicidal.

Physically: Take care of yourself, doing unhealthy things won't change what's happened, but it will make coping with the future that much harder.

Mentally: Realize that one bad semester doesn't mean you're screwed and just because one teacher is out of line doesn't mean she's right. You won't have to deal with her again, the anger is eating away at you and she's not feeling a thing (I'm by no means telling you to go do or say something to her.) And if the guy you have a crush on isn't going to work out, that's okay, but don't let that mess you up. Even if he's not right for you, you'll find someone who is.

Emotionally: You're obviously really smart, you can handle this and think about talking to someone about this whole thing since it's obviously got you upset and scared.