[jpeople111]

Thank you for the support,I might try speaking to my parents again soon but not today,I feel really bad because I think my friends feel like I didn't care much about my friend who died because I just don't talk about it because it makes me cry and all my life I have been known as like the strong one.

Also I finished my first year of college on the 22nd may and I don't go back till September so I have nothing which motivates me to get out of bed in the morning,I'm trying to get a job because my parents told me to but the thought of having a job and so much responsibility right now scares me so much.