you definitely deserve a better childhood, and the people who bullied you are people who 've serious problem and never really saw you for the awesome person you really are. I want to reach out to you, i want to be your friend.. and i suggest moving areas or schools to an area where you finally feel like home.
The past is the past.. its time to concentrate on the future.. on the things that make you happy. All of us have our skeletons in the closet and its no point thinking bout it . Just burn that skeleton, buy a new closet and move on.
you're strong.. ya hear? and you're loved. so loved.