[L4Y]

I did read this and I feel your story is absolutely worthwhile. I'm very sorry you have been through so much in your young life and I hope sharing your feelings here helped to some degree.

It sounds as if the issues between you and your parents continue to deeply affect you to this day. As it is causing you so much pain, I truly believe it would be beneficial to you to have a good discussion with both of them (or at least one) if possible. If you don't feel this can happen, I would suggest at least speaking to a counselor or therapist, as it really does seem as if these are things you need to discuss.

I wish you the best and hope everything works out.