[Kate*]

WHY am I back to wanting that again? Maybe I never stopped wanting it. It's not like it's going to change anything. Maybe I just want someone else to have to wrestle with this or I want him to fix everything like he did all the other times. I need to get ti through my head that IT'S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN!! At least not without a miracle and the door has already been closed. I'll have to move on without it. How do you give yourself closure on something this big when you know you're not going to get it from anyone else?

It turned into a disaster, I never would've finished I know that, but that doesn't mean that the fall out from actually losing it isn't making me want to lose it. I'm seriously going INSANE here. I don't know if I can keep this up for too much longer.

So she handled it differently than you would've, that's not the issue I had with it. The issue I had was that she didn't handle that part of it at all, BIG difference. I know you weren't required to do it for me, but after being told that you would (or at least SOMEONE would) I was expecting something more than a bunch of cliches and I stand by the fact that I shouldn't have had to appeal to get that.