[mindflower]

to be honest i just want to scream at everyone. that type of screaming that turns into crying and they can't have their say because you're the one crying and screaming. i want to scream at him for being so fuckng ignorant and talking to me when obviously we aren't friends and i have not forgiven him and he isn't even trying yet he thinks his life is so damn bad. i want to murder his girlfriend too but don't tell anyone. i want to scream at my best friend because she doesn't understand how much it hurts to be where i am and how free i want to be but can't be because i am unconfident and uncomfortable and upset with myself for being insignificant and unimportant to everything yet she complains when she gets every role and every boy and every chance she wants. i want to scream at everyone in my cast for theater to just shut up and grow up. i want to scream at my mother for being an hour late again to pick me up. i want to scream at my parents in general for making this so hard on me. i want to scream at my boyfriend for not even attempting to understand anymore. ugh. UGH.