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Hey, I am sorry you are dealing with this. I should think there is a way to manage your mental health, for which I suggest seeing a psychologist or psychiatrist. A psychiatrist is more likely to be covered by health insurance and/or provincial/national health care. I can not give you a formal answer about what is wrong because I am not an expert, however I can share what I know. Please see a professional for formal answers though, my response here is to simply give you an idea of what I think is causing this.

For starters, I have personal experience here. I have ADHD, generalized anxiety disorder and a history of panic disorder. I have suffered from depression in the past. I might always have had anxiety, but I always assumed it was caused by the ADHD + stress. The depression was situational. Any ways, so I used to smoke marijuana, and I would have panic attacks. It would total my attention and feel uncomfortable when ever I could pay attention (I would basically black out, would have no memory of what had just been happening for a few minutes). A few times I had panic attacks, my heart would race, I would feel like puking and I would be dizzy and feel like I was dying. Considering I have had panic attacks, this terrified me - when I am sober and having a panic attack I usually break down crying, hyperventilating, become dizzy (but in a light headed way, not in a way that would make me lose my balance or almost pass out), so the panic attacks I had when stoned were more extreme in a way. I eventually quit because it was not worth my time to risk having a panic attack (it was also a detriment to becoming a police officer). FYI I am not a cop, but wanting to be one at the time helped me quit.

Ok so, I know people (AKA doctors) who said that recently studies have been published which demonstrate that marijuana can increase the risk of having a psychological break amongst many people - the people at the highest risk are ones with a pre-existing mental health disorder. I think most drugs come with this risk and people just assumed that marijuana and alcohol were not inclusive of that. This statement comes twofold 1) I would steer clear of any non-prescription / recreational drugs for the time being as there is that risk and 2) it could be why you are having problems. It is possible that the drugs have caused some kind of problem in your mind. Again, a psychologist or psychiatrist can help you resolve that.