[LANIKA]

It would have been a year today, but we didn't make it to a year. Just six months. You left in what you said was guilt, but what I really know was relief. It's okay, I felt it too - I've come so far without you here. We were stupid to make so many promises to one another, promises that sixteen and seventeen year old girls should never make. We were stupid to believe that what we were saying was true. We were stupid to ignore the fact that we brought each other more misery than pleasure. Six months. I wish I could say that I regret that time spent together, but I don't. I do know, however, that you would if you knew the truth. I wish I could say that I feel guilty, but I don't. I think there's something wrong with me. In any case, I shed no tears today - I merely reflect on how much has changed. A year ago today, I was vowing to leave the boy I'm seeing - For you. Everything happens for a reason, I suppose, and now I'm fallen comfortably in his arms once again. Happy one year that wasn't, I suppose - I miss you. But I'm glad you're gone.