[xMonicax]

I started to cut myself when i was 14 due to alot of things, including my anxiety. It dragged on for what seemed like forever, but i finally found a way out, years later. I was really proud of myself.

A few days ago, i got really upset and things got out of control. I had an X-acto knife next to me on the desk, so i took it and made one single cut on my leg. I put it down and decided i shouldn't start again.

Today, i had one of the worst melt downs ever. My entire world came crashing down. i started having a panic attack and i couldnt handle the stress. I took the sharpest razor blade i could find and destroyed my leg. It felt so satisfying.

What should i do? I don't want to start cutting again, but i've reminded myself of how pleasant self-harm can be. Questions, Comments, Advice? Help me.