- I am terrified she's going to tell you what I said and you'll take it out of context. If you come back and say you don't want to do this anymore I don't know what I'll do. I've come to a place where I feel like I need this in my life. More specifically, I need this with YOU. You offer structure that I can't seem to find with anyone else. I feel safe with you. And really, the whole cause of this problem is that I want you to think I'm responsible.

Right now my entire life is falling apart and you're not there to catch me. And that's what is hardest about this.