[Spirit.]

Hi,

I'm sorry to hear of your situation. It's understandable that moving out isn't easy. We get used to the way that things are sometimes. What I can say, is work towards it - Moving out, moving on. Our family may be of our blood, and they say that we don't choose our family. But I think we do, in many ways. A lot of other people become closer to us than our very own family - which shows how a family could be like, a family we'd like t be a part of. If anything, I'd say - work on moving out. It is a long process, so it will take time.

When dealing with your family, don't give in to all the things they are trying to get you to do, like break up with your boyfriend. They might just push you to such a point. What's important is you listening to your heart. While you're still with your dad,it might be hard, but try to enjoy doing the things that you're doing, like cooking and cleaning. Do it for you. Don't do it for anyone else. Do it because you have a beautiful heart. do it because you like living in a clean, lovely home. Do it because you want to make sure your father eats. If they treat you the way they treat you, they just don't know how to see the angel that you are and they're just missing out. Too bad for them. If I may make a small suggestion? In your head, maybe a few times a day when you're getting mad at your dad or anyone else just repeat the words 'you're right, I'm wrong' a few times. What it does is stops you from being involved in whatever it is anymore with them. Once you say you're wrong, the need to continue to fight stops. Just say this in your head. Or if they keep saying that you should do something, just tell them: Yes, you're right, I'm wrong. And leave it at that. See if it helps you. I know it sounds strange. But it's worked so well for me. I has very much to do with the state of mind you are in and the energy that you are projecting towards them. If you don't want to try it, that's perfectly alright, too! I just ask, what have you got to lose by trying?

If you need to talk, do PM me anytime.
Take care of yourself x