[DYon]

You know very well why I hurt, yet you never talk to me about it. I wish you would realize what was going on. You only tell me you love me when I'm extremely upset and want kill myself (so far), yet when we are having a good time, you tell me we need to stop doing things so I would love you. You know I can't take my feelings away, love for you is never going to fade away. You can't tell me you love me and then the next day say you don't want me to love you without explaining. I tried asking you why but you kept dodging the question each time.

When everything goes to hell, all I can do to keep myself sane is think about you. But then I think about all of this...all of us...then things get even worse. I just want things to make sense. Please, make them make sense. I need them to.

If you really don't want me to love you, then I guess at some point I could finally realize that, I mean it's a sane possibility. And maybe I will move on...but when I move on, I hope you do realize I won't need to feel like I need your permission, or to even tell you I feel like, to hurt myself or end my life. I only feel like I need your permission because to me, my love is that strong that you would be the only one that could stop me.

Just murder me now? Really, here is a gun >.>