[DYon]

>>> Today is "the holiday" I was talking about that upsets me most. You know, I so really badly want to tell you "I love you" so many times I see you, but don't because I know you don't want me to feel that way. It's so hard for me to not say anything, because I just want to let you know, but I can't because you don't want me to...or at least it feels like you don't want me to.

>>> You know, I've been thinking about it more. If it's so important for you to not want me to love you, maybe I should try and stop. I know I can't, but if I did, I would want you to realize that I would never need your permission again to hurt myself. I don't want you to take that for granted. The only reason I told you I ever needed your permission was because I love you so much, that the only way for me to stop myself is to hear you say "David, no".

>>> You know I can't fall out of love with you, why are you trying so hard then? You know, you are my world and you are the only person I want to spend it with. I mean that with all of my heart. The only reason some days I get out of bed is because of you - I know you would want me to do my best.

>>> I'm just going to say it here, wishing I could say it to you, in-person or via a message..."I love you". You can see in my eyes how much I mean it, and that there is no other person in this world that makes me as happy as you do. You would probably also see my tearing up because when I get overly emotional, I tend to have a few tears. When you look into my eyes, you see what I love and care for most in this world - you.

>>> I'm crazy