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It's hard for a lot of people to understand the problems. Also, your mom might just disagree with the method you expect. Your mom might understand that you are unhappy and just believe that disappearing out of school won't help at all.

Honestly, I don't think I blame her for that. I learned to hate school while I was in kindergarten. It's a love hate relationship for me - I am smart and I love learning, but I am also disinterested in the academic process and school causes me such extreme stress that I've wanted to hurt myself on multiple occasions and am current.y seeking counseling because of it.

I don't think that disappearing will help because you're ultimately not dealing with the things that are causing the depression. Trust me, it's not like I don't understand the misery that school can cause in your life, but I do think that by seeking help (ex. taking to a guidance counsellor, regular counsellor, seeing medical treatment etc.) might make a huge difference.

I have to wonder what will happen when you get to college or university? "Good" degrees aren't usually offered online. And same with careers (trust me, my current job ramps up my anxiety like you wouldn't believe). It's nice to think that taking online courses now will help, but it's like a bandaid on your mental health issues, you don't actually learn coping skills. Ultimately, what will benefit most is daeling with it in a way that allows you to be surrounded by your stressors without becoming severely depressed.