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I am going to keep this short and sweet.

I have never liked school. even when I first started, I did not enjoy it. I am now a senior in high school and I have 4 months left until I graduate, but I have become extremely unhappy with myself and school that i do not think I cane bare going these next four months. I have absolutely no motivation to get up in the mornings. Sunday's nights, after the weekends, are the hardest for me. I sit up all night and think about going to school and it literally drives me insane. my body gets so tense and it makes me want to throw things or punch something. I start imagining different ways to kill myself and it's not good. I've tried telling my mom how unhappy I am and how I want to finish the year doing online school, but she doesn't really listen to me. if I do not get out of school, I really think that I will end up failing, or hurt myself. I can't really explain what it is that I hate so much. I do not going to the same place everyday and seeing the same people everyday and being told what to do. I also get extremely nervous when I have to talk teachers or do presentations, and I have a very low confidence. I'm taking three classes that I trchnically don't need to graduate, but I can't drop them and its making me stress out a lot. I honestly have no idea what to do.