I am so sorry you're going through this.
Anxiety sucks. I've found that carrying essential oils around with me and using them when I have panic/anxiety attacks really helps. The ones I constantly carry are Peace & Calm, Joy, Lavender, and Peppermint. They smell good and have almost an immediate effect. It's also a comforting feeling just to know you have something that can combat it. I'd suggest trying some of them and seeing how the work for you.
