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Hey!

I'll address the binge eating first. Often the urge to binge is because you haven't eaten enough earlier in the day. Your body "panics" because you haven't fed it, so you get extreme urges to just eat a lot. It's a biological reaction to starvation.

Just because you're male doesn't mean you can't suffer, don't worry about this being embarrassing. Hand on heart, I've met more boys who are recovered from an eating disorder than I have girls. It's not just a female problem, regardless of what the media says.

Now, it all depends on why you're not eating. It could be due to medication, as some medications do reduce your appetite. But this sounds like more than this- you see food as disgusting, and this plus the urges to throw up is what is concerning me. How have you reacted to your weight loss? Do you want to lose more, or can you see this is a problem and want to eat normally but can't because of lack of appetite? When people say you look thin, how do you feel?

These are all answers it would be good to tell your psychologist. Maybe it's the medication, maybe it's the start of an eating disorder. I don't know, but your psychologist will be able to help. Don't be afraid to say anything to them. They've seen everything a million times before.

Just make sure you get help for this, food intake is a dangerous thing to mess with. Be brave <3