[DYon]

*yells in a very loud manner*

Why does everything have to be on MY fucking shoulders?! *bangs pillow against body*

Yes, I know *YOU* do not fucking want things to be distributed a certain way but others do. I secretly try to do what *I* can to please you but in this subject, I have to agree with others. I'm tired of people complaining and wasting my fucking time. I don't even want to be there anymore, I'm only really there because you are.

I am sorry for screaming at you to calm the fuck down, but you have to realize I had a SHITTY morning and talking about the thing you wanted to talk about made me want to just throw my computer out the window >.> My custom ordered violin strings I purchased 3 weeks ago arrived on Friday and I just checked my mailbox and saw them sitting there...You have no idea how stressed and confused I am right now. I am trying my best to calm the fuck down, but unknowing to you the subject you wanted to talk about made me so pissed off, I TOO wanted to just put a fucking hole in the wall.

I don't know what I'm ever going to do. While your life continues forward, mine doesn't...please just slowly bring this crap up, don't come running at me full force with it...I need to prepare for these things...