[DYon]

Hey shazza12371,

I know what it is like to fall for someone but in the end you know it just cannot happen no matter how much you want it to. You'd be surprised, I am still dealing with it even though it happened about a month and a half ago, but time passes for us all differently. This guy was the first person I truly loved and felt comfortable being with - first loves are the worst. *hugs you*

Why can't you be with the guy? Have you shared your feeling with him? Have you told him how he makes you feel? Love is a very crazy emotion - it can make us happy and sad within seconds, but it is so worth it. You have an entire lifetime ahead of you, I want you to know that. You are important no matter how you may feel right now.

Everyone experiences love differently, but most will agree your first love is usually the hardest to deal with when it doesn't work out, but you have to have faith that things will get better. You aren't the only one who has experienced a bad first love experience, but it gets better. You will find someone out there that will love you unconditionally. *hugs you*

Have you talked to anyone about being kicked and punched? Is there an adult in your life (possibly at school or a friend's parent) that you can talk to? You should not have to be afraid to be hurt at home, no kid should. If it is bad, you need to seek help out. You are special and deserve to have a good life. I know seeking help of any type can be difficult but it is worth it. The sooner you can get help, the better you can resolve many of your problems and get the help you need - this will help improve your life, it has mine.